Raat aegi (The night will come)

Disclaimer: This post will jump from topic to topic and might not make sense.

I think Junaid Jamshed was one of the finest musicians of our country, I can listen to him on repeat, honestly. Ironically my favourite genre of music is rock but I dont know who Iam anymore. I dont know what I want, who I want. Im an escapist. There is soo much shit happening around the world and seems like there will never be peace because people want money and just money.

I dream but there is no passion in me. Neither do I love with passion nor do I hate with passion. They all are plans and they might die with me. Realisation of the former fact can only come when one sees contrast, sees people with passion do what they love with their heart and soul.

Recently my college had a talent night organised by the freshmen. I truly was mesmerised when I heard one of their guitar player. The boy is a true artist and truly talented. He guitar slapped and God knows what but that piece was mesmerising. It had contrast, scale change, rhythm and a smooth transition.

I want to act, sing, photograph, dance, travel the world, be a social activist, I want to design,write, create. But where is my passion?

Timely matters and other stories

Ok so now its more about the knowing the softwares apart from being good at the 'whole concept behind the piece'. You gotta know your photoshop and your illustrator. So my poor brother upgrades our BIG desktop (which is on a chair in my room and not a desk). I put all my important softwares like skype, movie players etc. Now my external hard disk has three CS. CS3 extended, CS 4 and CS 5. CS 4 was perfectly fine until I needed Bridge to convert the format of my photographs. Ok now what to do? How about I just instal the bridge from the CS3 master collection since there is only photoshop in the CS4 folder. Turns out CS 3 bridge would only work with CS3 photoshop. Ok so I uninstall the CS3 bridge and install CS3 bridge again with photoshop. Turns out photoshop has some activation issues. OK! I uninstall it and download CS4 bridge of the internet so that it partners with the existing CS4 photoshop I have. OBVIOUSLY MY WONDERFUL IDEA DID NOT WORK. Oh did I tell you, the CS5 I have doesnt work anyways. So now I have good pictures waiting to get edited. EEEEEEEEEEE!

Today was relatively a lighter day because no submission due tomorrow. So I thought I'll watch a movie. My friend burnt me a DVD with two movies in it because she desperately wanted me to see them. I tried watching the first one called Into the wild. It was sooooooo slow that I switched to another movie. I really wanted to watch it but hadnt gotten the time. So I put in Everybodys fine and turns out it gets stuck after every two minute. I try really hard that I can somehow watch it but nothing works. Sigh. Then our lovely load shedding problem, so I go to give my film for scanning after we picked up one from tuitions and dropped the other at the same location for his tuitions.

6th May 2010. The above post is and will remain incomplete because when i was at it,the electricity went and now I dont feel like completing it.